Hope or confidence?

I'm done with you. With your survival mode, your frozen life energy, your focus on what can't be done and all the extra limitations you unconsciously impose on yourself. You don't move, you wait and I can't reach you. You imprison yourself by hoping for an end date that keeps shifting. This exhausts you and makes you dependent. 

Do you notice yourself that your instinctive survival mechanism is taking over? In acute danger it serves you. And now it's getting in the way of you and me being in touch about later. 

I would love to shake you up, embrace you, thaw you out and get you moving. So that you feel your heart beats faster when you think about your future. Like my heart beats faster when I think of what's to come, even though I don't know when yet. Toasting with my love at our party in Slovenia. Listening to the participants with whom I will sit around a crackling campfire on the first leadership night. 

With all the warmth and energy I have in me, I would like to thaw you out. Feel the warmth in yourself again, get moving, dream about later. 

How do I do that, not freeze myself? Confidence, that is my secret. I have confidence in regaining our freedom. That gives me resilience and space to dream about my future, about that party, that vacation, my education. Confidence is in every cell of my body. It lets me up, keeps me warm, gets me moving, and gives me perspective. 

The energy of confidence is so different from that of hope. Hope is more dependent and like a battery that slowly drains. Then you are literally 'spent' when it does last longer. Confidence that things will 'someday' be all right tempts you to dream away and make plans for the future. The relased energy can be used directly to persevere and not to freeze your life more than strictly necessary.

You can do this too! Stop hoping, start feeling confidence. Look ahead, dream away, make plans. Prepare your dream vacation, the anticipation is fun too. Give yourself a present for an education later, when you don't have to do it online anymore. Breathe, live, keep having confidence in a future where you may choose for yourself. 

I want to go on. I can go on. I do not have to wait for statements from others about new perspectives, I create my own perspective for my future. Will you join me?